eugene gould was his name. he looked like a certain ex but he wasn't that ex. he was much much nicer than that ex. really sweet actually. met up with him at a pool after the prenatal massage therapy class. couldn't find him for a while. before that, at his house because my parent's house was busy with people, a party. his house, slowly ppl started to arrive and then leave. he apologized for that. we weren't gonna do anything physical but we ended up making out cause i wanted to. cause i liked him. i wish this wasn't in a dream. i wish it was reality. i really liked this guy in my dream. this is the second or third dream in a row i've had about a relationship and sex. i think i miss being in a relationship or at least having someone i like to hold me. i want kevin to hold me but he mostly decided it was a bad idea for us to see each other, which i agree with but i still wanna have him hold me, kiss my hand like he used to. i miss the connection i felt with him right after we'd kiss, when our faces were still pressed against each other. i felt connected to him at that moment.